There are days or nights like tonight where I sit here with a heart and mind full and know that I myself cannot take care of the things going on in my life, the decisions that need to be made, the thoughts in my head or the feelings in my heart. Sometimes life just seems so crazy, mixed up, lonely and overwhelming and there are other times that life is so full of happiness, answered questions, friends around, answered prayers full of all the things that make us happy.
There were times when I wondered if anyone heard my cries or saw my tears whether I would ever be happy. I have been there and done so very much in my 37 years. I made lots of bad choices and did the wrong things many times, but I also have done many things right and good. I cannot let myself get caught up in the bad things. I have the love of my Heavenly Father and I know that no matter where I am, what I am doing or what is going on He is always with me. He hears all of my cries whether in pain, hurt or anger or of happiness, joy and love.
I think as children we think that when we get bigger or older that life will be so much better because we will be more in charge only to grow up and learn that is not always the case. We have so many more obligations, choices, responsibilities and then we remember that as little children we had someone to take care of us, keep us safe and help us and we know that growing up might not be the answer.. LOL As an adult I can say that sometimes I think back to my childhood and living on the farm and wish I could go back, but then I also remember that I was not always happy back then either.
I don't know how to explain it very good, but I know that although my life is nothing like I KNEW it would be growing up and I have made some HUGE mistakes and done some AMAZING things that God is not finished with me yet and that when I feel so down and lonely that He is there to pick me up and carry me.
God is so very good and I want everyone to know Him.. When I was in Jr High and High School I was going to be the one to tell everyone I knew about my Lord and Savior. I have not been quite as good as I thought I might be back then, but I am here to tell you that God is so good. He loves you no matter what and is there for you no matter what. I know that above all I can call His name and He is right here with me.He will do the same for you... The Will of God will Never Take You Where the Grace of God Will Not Protect You. Get down on your hands and knees and pray just open up, call on Him, let Him work in your life and give Him all the PRAISE, HONOR and GLORY...
Till Next Time.... God Bless
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